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sometimes i have these moments there i wish something would happen in life ( first world problem i'm bored cuz everything is safe and good and nothing big or bad happens to me) i guess i know why i like roller coaster even if i'm afraid of heights ... it's cuz as much as i think i'm going to die i feel sooooo alive when fall down in high speed... hehehe  i think i have read in many books/manga there ppl says that u only feel truly alive when u are almost dying or something like that. perhaps i should go outside now when it's dark cuz i'm afraid of the darkness... but i wont do that cuz it's not a point of no return. a roller coaster kinda is a point of no return especially when u are with friends cuz even if u trust them u kinda dont want to look weak or disappoint them  so u stand in the line and when u sit down in the roller coaster u can't really gets away unless u feel like u can fly X'D. but then u are done with roller coaster u get the must amazing feeling of being alive like u can do EVERYTHING !! 

MAAAAH MAAAH what's up with the dark strange mode darzell !?!?!?

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 maaaaaaaaaaaaah right forgot !! one of my friends just got back from JAPAN !! kuyashiii i want to go toooooooo!! maaah inari i promise someday i will!  well well she was there for some WEEKS!!  and omg i will force her to tell me how it was who she saw met what she did and EVERYTHING !! hihihihihi i soo want to see pictures !